will divorce beckon?

the tough thing abt living with Adhd is the communication with people. For me it is the hardest thing to do.
Apparently my words are not what i intend them to mean so the message i intend to convey is not the message people im communicating with understand.
i use the word frustration but it cannot begin to describe what i wish to express.
Just argued with the wife abt how her family is having problems with me and how that makes her feel. she wants to divorce. and its just about a month into the so called marriage.
its sad to hear that but i dont feel like im part of the family as im just the guy their poor daughter married.
at this point of time the thoughts of suicide reemerge. is it not easier to end the story now? there seems to be no point to the story. i really want the hurt and frustration to stop... but it always seems this wont be permanent.fuck you positivity. fuck you big time.