Like the title says. interesting times.
I am back in the city, working in a bank selling insurance products, so thats good. My sales performance isnt going great so thats not so good. I've got a 6 month probationary period and I am on my 4th month, and so far i am not at a level that allows me to be accepted as a permanent employee.
It does worry me as VL is 3 months into her pregnancy. We're really happy about it, but we are also a bit troubled by our finances.
Adhd wise, I think I am coping well so far. I have gone off the meds, but by my own volition. I have stopped meeting the psychiatrist or should I say the sessions stopped when I left for the city, and by the way, so did the psychiatrist! I am still seeing the psychologist but i feel that she has helped me as much as possible for now. I am still impulsive and overactive at times, but the strangest thing since i got back to the city is how introverted i have been. I believe i have never been so introverted in my life. It's so weird. I usually am quite outspoken. I am usually very close to my best buds N and L, but i have not for the life of me met them as much as i would usually do in the past.
I am starting to live a monotonous life and i need to change that. I need to add more meaning and progress in my life to feel alive. I am doing something to achieve this, namely i will;
1. Eat wisely and control portion size
2. Rest well and sufficiently
3. Exercise and read 2 chapters from any book in a day.
4. blog more and write down my feelings.
5. take everything 1 day at a time.
6. everything i do has to have a purpose, thereby limiting the pointless activities.
7. pray and reflect
8. Live not for myself but for others.
9. Respect others
I am afraid and excited for the future of me and my family. I just feel that there are too many unknown factors but i remain optimistic about it because i know God is by my side and I will do everything with intent and purpose.
